Photo Vomit [#13]: Hold Still by Nina Lacour


“I am a girl ready to explode into nothing.”

Devastating, hopeful, hopeless, playful . . . in words and illustrations, Ingrid left behind a painful farewell in her journal for Caitlin. Now Caitlin is left alone, by loss and by choice, struggling to find renewed hope in the wake of her best friend’s suicide. With the help of family and newfound friends, Caitlin will encounter first love, broaden her horizons, and start to realize that true friendship didn’t die with Ingrid. And the journal which once seemed only to chronicle Ingrid’s descent into depression, becomes the tool by which Caitlin once again reaches out to all those who loved Ingrid—and Caitlin herself.

– hold still by nina lacour

Back before I started blogging, Nina Lacour’s Hold Still is one of the books that I can say I read and loved even though it made me cry. I can barely recall what the story was about. All I can remember was how I felt after I read it and how Caitlin spends most of her sleeping and waking time grieving in a decrepit car parked in their front yard. I loved it. So much so, than when a Kickstarter drive was started to fund the movie adaptation, I donated because I wanted to see it in film. That was in 2012.


There are incentives when you donate money. My threshold included a signed screenplay and a postcard. Days, months and years went by and I’ve forgotten all about it. I’ve been meaning to contact Kickstarter to ask whatever happened to my “gift”.


A couple of weeks ago, they contacted me. It turns out, they were running a little behind on sending them out. When I got it in the mail, I was ecstatic. I’ve never seen a screenplay before! And it was signed, no less. I want to reread the book just to see if I can tell the difference, or which scenes didn’t make it in film. I also want to know which actors are playing whose roles. It’s oh so exciting!


I don’t know when the movie will be out. I don’t even know if they’d started filming. I’ll be stalking Nina’s blog regularly for more information, to be sure.

Have you read Hold Still?

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