With the unfortunate news of the FBI Director’s attempt to influence the American election, the changes Book Expo is about to implement, and the rumors that HarperCollins will only be sending physical ARCs to Booktubers and Bookstagrammers, this past weekend can only be summed up in one word: it sucked. Now, before I get people riled up, I don’t care all that much about BEA ridding of the book blogger con altogether, nor do I care about the ARCs that I wasn’t getting from HarperCollins in the first place. I only care that the book bloggers’ role in the publishing industry is being marginalized and underappreciated – disrespected, even.
Some of us have been doing this for years. It’s become a responsibility and a job most of do not get paid for. We do our part to keep the hype machine running. So the exclusion stings. Last week, Jenny of Supernatural Snark decided to leave the book reviewing blogosphere, and I’m not gonna lie, after the weekend spent feeling sorry for myself, and questioning whether or not it’s even worth the effort anymore, I’ve been contemplating on following her footsteps. It’s not because of the ARCs, never that. After all, HarperCollins don’t even know I exist and I certainly didn’t start blogging because of them. It’s just…it really hurts to feel rejected.
I think it stings more because the last time I attended BEA, there was a panel on the popularity of book tubers who basically said readers would rather watch book tubers than read blog posts. And this past weekend, it hurts to come to terms with the fact that a publishing house such as HarperCollins in one way or another gives that claim some credence.
But we are a resilient, forgiving bunch, aren’t we? We are also not revengeful. We’re not going to quit buying their books just because we want them to feel the same sting of rejection. At the end of the day, we need to recognize our reasons for blogging in the first place. If you’re like me, I use my blog as an outlet. I have things to get off my chest which just happens to be feelings – good or bad – over a book. If my opinions helped someone decide to buy, borrow, skip a book, then my job here is done. And that’s all I have to say about that.
I’ve had a slow month but I’m about 7 books away to reaching my Goodreads goal of 150 books for the year. November, I think is going to get even slower. I feel like I need to reevaluate this book blogging thing. I’ve been feeling uninspired lately, anyway. I want to find a steady ground so I can decide what I want to do once and for all. I don’t think I’ll ever stop reading, but I feel exhausted and burned out. I’ll keep y’all posted.