When You Absolutely Want to Post Something but there’s Just Nothing There.

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This sucks.

I’ve been out of work for over a week now, but I’ve yet to actually finish a new book. You know what I’ve been doing? (I mean besides looking for a job, that is. ) Imagining the following:

Inside My Head

  • In my mind, I’ve won the lottery at least twice already.
  • I’ve lost at least 20 lbs doing nothing.
  • I’ve written half of my first draft of The Great Canadian novel (which will be shortlisted for Giller prize, take note).
  • My bookshelves are finally,Β finallyΒ organized alphabetically.
  • I don’t have to worry about my blog because the blog writes itself, obvs.
  • We’ve moved to Waco, Texas and Jo and Chip Gaines found us a great Fixer Upper that they’ve renovated for us.
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Oh to dream.

I’m quickly finding out that staying at home the whole day is not all it’s cracked up to be. It turns out, sitting on my butt for a couple of hours straight isn’t all that fun. Especially if you’re thinking about the coming Christmas season and how different it will be this year. We’re usually out of the country, but since I’m currently unemployed, we’re having ourselves a White Christmas this year.

But. Things are looking up. In fact, I’m starting a new job on Monday (yay), and I have another job interview tomorrow (eeeep). I’m so thankful that the job search hasn’t been a struggle, but it’s still not something I want to make a habit of doing. So this time, I’m going to suck it up and stick to this one until I find that job that I will be doing for the next 20 years.

  • You go Joy! I’ve been a stay at home mom for a while until I felt my son was old enough to go to daycare or school. I certainly didn’t want him in daycare too young, especially before he could talk since nowadays it seems so hard to find good care for children. Around the time we were looking, an incident happened not too far from where we live where a newborn, and a toddler were abused by the daycare workers, and I remember my boyfriend and I both agreeing that we weren’t comfortable with it just yet. Now my son is three, and I am more than ready to get back in the working field. It’s not that easy, especially explaining to people that I took time off to raise my child, (which seems to be bizarre for some employers) but I’ve recently been looking for jobs, so I’m hoping all goes well. I’m so glad things are looking up for you! Good luck with everything Joy πŸ™‚

  • Goes to show how much of a rut I’m in to get super excited that you watch Fixer Upper as well. It’s amazing what they do to those houses on such a small budget as well. It sounds as though you’re just settling for those ‘inbetween’ type jobs until that awesome position comes along. I hope you find it soon Joy, the search sounds exhausting. A white Christmas sounds perfect actually, I dread Christmas. It’s always stinking hot here and by the time you finish cooking, you’re sweating like a feral animal and want to throw the roast lamb at your guests for daring to eat. I hope it picks up soon poppet <3

  • Good luck with the new job and the interview!
    I wish I was motivated enough to organise my bookshelves… and I’m home all day! lol

  • Oh wouldn’t it be awesome if the blog wrote itself? Sigh. Hope the job goes awesomely!

  • Joy it totally sounds like you’re stuck in a rut at the moment – good luck with the new job on Monday, you got one pretty quickly and at least you won’t be out of pocket for too long!

  • Aww Joy. I can definitely say I’ve felt similarly, but really that means nothing. When you’re feeling it, it doesn’t matter, so much, to know you’re not alone. Or it didn’t for me. It just matters that *you’re* feeling it, and nothing much else counts. So I’m really, really sorry. For me, the only way of getting through it was just to do those things I invisaged, even when I didn’t feel like it. At the end of the day it was better to have accomplished one thing, than nothing and have an ever growing list. xx

  • “I don’t have to worry about my blog because the blog writes itself, obvs.” SAMEEE. I can’t seem to post either because of the same thing. I’m too much in my head. But I hope your job goes well, Joy! πŸ™‚

  • Well just think about it girl! At least you have time to sit home and just relax (I’m assuming?) When you’re out and working and stuff your mind will be occupied more but then you’ll be wishing for the times that you were able to just sit at home and relax. πŸ™‚ Great on the job for Monday! And I just KNOW you already have this next one you have the interview for! Praying for your success chica! xoxo

  • Ah yes, in my head I am always losing weight..,
    Hope that your new job goes well tomorrow

  • Jazmen

    Initially being unemployed for a while felt like freedom I had been working at a retail job before my long stint with unemployment for about seven years that I hated. I mean loathed, and then I jumped into another retail job that I hated. So while I didn’t want to be unemployed I felt free. Free to do what I wanted–sort of. But then after a while I started feeling useless, but I had been struggling with it for 2+ years. I wasn’t as lucky to find a job quickly. But I did get that I wanna’ get up and do something feeling. I mean I get it. It’s tough ya’ know. I said all that to say I feel your pain because I’m too not where I want to be but I’m somewhere. So, I hope this one works out for you for the time being! Have a great first day!

  • I’m so sorry that you’ve been feeling this way Joy. I’m really glad that you found a new job so soon! πŸ™‚ I’m sure that now you have that stability again, things will start going better. Sending you warm wishes! πŸ™‚

  • Woo, best of luck for your job interview! I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS.

  • Nicole Hewitt

    Glad that you’ve got something new lines up until you can find the perfect job! I know what it’s like to just procrastinate and not want to do anything because you’re not in the right frame of mind.

    Nicole @ Feed Your Fiction Addiction

  • yeah Christmas will be difficult for us this year too with new addition to the family. Sorry time spent at home didn’t feel productive. I hope your new job is just what the doctor has ordered. i win the lottery everyday in my head πŸ˜‰

  • Isn’t Fixer Upper a great show? I think Jo and Chip have such a great dynamic and they are so hilarious. I also think I am hilarious for being super addicted to HGTV.

    Wouldn’t it be great to wake up one day and to realize you had won the lottery? TO DREAM. Oh and that blogs were written by owls. That would be great.

    I am sorry the past week has been so meh for you, Joy but I am glad to hear you’re starting a new job on Monday! And I hope the job interview goes well! πŸ™‚ GOOD LUCL

  • Wait, I missed something. Unemployed? I thought you had a new job lined up? Is the one on Monday the one you talked about previously or are you hopping around?

    Love JO & Chip, they’re so cute and Jo has great taste!

  • shootingstarsmag

    That’s great you have a new job and an interview for another one too. I hope you find something you can really enjoy! I hate job hunting – i”m currently doing that myself.


  • Aww I didn’t know you were looking for another job. I hope you end up liking this one! Also I dream everyday for Chip and Joanna to get me a fixer upper, in the north or something though and not Waco

  • Glad you found a job! I totally understand what you mean about sitting idle. Drives me crazy. I’m sure your Christmas will still be lovely!

  • Glad you finally found a job. I hope the interview for the other job goes good, too.

  • I am sure it will all come flying back to you soon. I do like the sound of you having found a job already and having an interview! Hope that all goes well x

  • YAY for finding work already. <3 I hope you will find the perfect one very soon too. And aw, I'm sure you guys will still have a stunning Christmas at home πŸ™‚ I always have Christmas at home, lol. You don't have to blog about anything, though. But I do always love reading your posts, no matter what you write about πŸ™‚ And aw, I'm sorry you find it boring to just sit at home. I.. love sitting in my chair all day long, lol πŸ™‚ But I'm used to it. Anyway. I hope you will have an amazing weekend sweet girl. <3

  • I wish for a lot of those things, too!
    Good luck on the interview, and yay for the new job! That’s great news!

  • kindlemom1

    I do love your dream wish though, if only..
    Yay for the new job, I hope it and the interview go very well for you!!

  • Good luck with everything, Joy! We’ll be here for you! πŸ™‚

  • Thinking of you Joy. Good luck for Monday, and the interview. Wishing you all the best! <3

  • Okay, I definitely laughed hard and loud at this post. You’re so funny, bahaha! And as for that edition of Scarlet Pimpernel, well I’m hunting it down on Amazon as soon as I post this comment.

  • What the heck? Why Waco? Yay, that is good news about the new job. You’ve been lucky with getting them.

  • Good luck with your new job and job interview, I’m sure everything will go absolutely great! I’m still in high school but I really want to see if I can’t perhaps get a part-time job working in a bookstore – IT WOULD BE A DREAM COME TRUE.

  • And soon I will going to my moldy job that gave me chronic sinus infection, blergh.
    But, I sure hope this new job is the one for you! I have realised that if you wanna stay with someting you gotta like it more than I do right now πŸ˜‰

  • It’s not fun to work in a job you hate, or for someone you hate. I ended up retiring 11 years early, mostly because I couldn’t stand my new boss-so yes you need to be happy in your job! So happy you found a job and have another interview for another one? I hope it all works out for you. And I would love to get a fixer upper done by them or The Property Brothers too!