Photo Vomit [#13]: Hold Still by Nina Lacour


“I am a girl ready to explode into nothing.”

Devastating, hopeful, hopeless, playful . . . in words and illustrations, Ingrid left behind a painful farewell in her journal for Caitlin. Now Caitlin is left alone, by loss and by choice, struggling to find renewed hope in the wake of her best friend’s suicide. With the help of family and newfound friends, Caitlin will encounter first love, broaden her horizons, and start to realize that true friendship didn’t die with Ingrid. And the journal which once seemed only to chronicle Ingrid’s descent into depression, becomes the tool by which Caitlin once again reaches out to all those who loved Ingrid—and Caitlin herself.

– hold still by nina lacour

Back before I started blogging, Nina Lacour’s Hold Still is one of the books that I can say I read and loved even though it made me cry. I can barely recall what the story was about. All I can remember was how I felt after I read it and how Caitlin spends most of her sleeping and waking time grieving in a decrepit car parked in their front yard. I loved it. So much so, than when a Kickstarter drive was started to fund the movie adaptation, I donated because I wanted to see it in film. That was in 2012.


There are incentives when you donate money. My threshold included a signed screenplay and a postcard. Days, months and years went by and I’ve forgotten all about it. I’ve been meaning to contact Kickstarter to ask whatever happened to my “gift”.


A couple of weeks ago, they contacted me. It turns out, they were running a little behind on sending them out. When I got it in the mail, I was ecstatic. I’ve never seen a screenplay before! And it was signed, no less. I want to reread the book just to see if I can tell the difference, or which scenes didn’t make it in film. I also want to know which actors are playing whose roles. It’s oh so exciting!


I don’t know when the movie will be out. I don’t even know if they’d started filming. I’ll be stalking Nina’s blog regularly for more information, to be sure.

Have you read Hold Still?

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  • That is the coolest thing ever!!!! Seriously, how rare and awesome is a signed screenplay? And now I need to go look up the book. 🙂

    • Right? I haven’t had the chance to read through it, but from what I’ve read so far, it’s interesting to say the least. 🙂

  • Wow Joy! That is so cool. I bet you will be stalking Nina! I would too!

    Naomi @ Nomi’s Paranormal Palace

    • On a daily basis! Stalk her blog, that is. 🙂

  • That would be so cool if a movie came out soon! AND WOW A SCREENPLAY! That is really cool!

    • I don’t even know where it’s at, to be honest. And since it’s an indie film, it’s probably on a limited – very limited release. :/

  • I haven’t read Hold Still, but it looks like you have a lot going on there that is going to be enjoyable! And congrats for donating to the campaign 😉

    I tagged you in a tag:

    • Thanks, Olivia! Also, for tagging me. 🙂

  • How exciting!! I donated to the Veronica Mars Kickstarter campaign – it was fun to be a part of something like that!

    Nicole @ Feed Your Fiction Addiction

    • How awesome! I like donating to anything book-related campaigns. 🙂

  • That is SO COOL. I hope the movie ends up being great! I haven’t read anything by Nina LaCour yet but I’ve been meaning too and I’ve been making some good progress on my TBR so hopefully sooner rather than later!!

    • Lucky you! I’ve yet to tackle the basement pile. Eeeeeeeep.

  • Oh wow, how cool! I’ve never backed anything in Kickstarter, though I’ve wanted to. I’ve also not read anything from Nina Lacour, even though I’ve heard raves about her books. I’m so glad your reward finally came!!

    • It only took two years! Lol. It’s a good incentive, and a good thing they’re doing over at Kickstarter. 🙂

  • Wow, they weren’t kidding when they said they were running behind were they. How awesome though, like owning a little piece of history. My hubby backs a lot of games via Kickstarter and it’s great when they give you early access to games and reward backers. It reminds me to check on there more often. Thanks for sharing Joy and going to search the original book and see if I can grab a copy <3

    • Like, two years behind. Lol. I hope you’ll enjoy it. Suicide is such a thing now in YA, but Nina LaCour’s Hold Still is one of the first ones I’ve read.

  • I’ve never even heard of this book, but let’s face it, that’s not a big surprise for anyone xD It does sound cool, though.

    – Love, Felicia

  • I heard of Nina Lacour’s Everything Leads To You (and I’ve been meaning to start reading it) but hadn’t heard of Hold Still by her. Now you’ve got me intrigued and I love your photos, Joy! I can’t wait to read this book now and watch the movie adaption! I’m so thrilled!

    • Oh I haven’t read that one yet. I have to try it. I hope you’ll enjoy, Lily!

  • Never heard of this book, but that is so cool that you got a screenplay for a movie that doesn’t exist yet! I hope you get your movie!

    • Thanks! Since it’s an indie film, I’ll probably have a hard time finding a copy.

  • Oooh this sounds exciting! I’ve been meaning to read a Nina LaCour book for ages, so I think I just might start with Hold Still. I hope they start filming soon and that you’ll love how the movie turns out, Joy! 😀

    • I hope so too, Aimee. It’s been such a long time since I read this book, but I wouldn’t mind reading it again.

  • Oh I hope they’ll start filming it soon, it’s fun when something we love can be adapted. I didn’t know about the book though I confess.

    • Not too many people does, unfortunately. And it’s a shame because it’s such a wonderful book.

  • How cool! I had never heard of this book until now, and it sounds like a really good one!
    Here’s to hoping that they kept the screenplay as close to the book as possible so we can all cry together 🙂

  • This sounds super exciting Joy, if I was in your shoes and I could help in anyway for one of my favourite books being made into a movie, I would totally do it. (I still need to read this book btw), but I am thrilled that some progress is being made for this movie-wise. That postcard by the way looks amazing! I hope you’re able to get some more details about this movie soon!

    • I hope so, too, Jas. I’ve waited forever and a day for this movie!

  • That is awesome Joy! Are they starting the movie yet? I hope the adaptation doesn’t bastardize the novel

    • I’m not even sure. I hope they will soon. :/

  • That’s so exciting and such a cool incentive! 🙂 I have Hold Still on my shelf, and I didn’t realize they were making it into a movie.

  • Haven’t heard of this one, but because of everyone’s exciting…I’ll go look it up now!!

    LOL, thanks for spreading the news

    • Hahhahah! Doesn’t sound like a Kat book, though. 😉

  • I had NO IDEA that this novel was being made into a film! I loved it–and have loved ALL of LaCour’s novels–so this is incredibly exciting. Thanks for sharing, Joy! 🙂

    • No problem, hun. I don’t know when the movie will be out so, keeping my fingers crossed that it will be available in Canada.

  • Didn’t know about the movies, but I did enjoy the emotion in this one

  • This is new to me as well but now, I must read it. Especially if there will be a movie out!

  • SO EXCITING!! And no, I haven’t read it, but I loved Everything Leads to You (and if they ever start a Kickstarter for a movie adaptation, I’ll definitely donate)

    • I haven’t read Everything Leads to You. I really should include that on my challenge this year.

  • HOW COOL IS THAT?!!!! I haven’t read this book, but the fact that you got the screenplay in the mail is awesome, I would definitely have read through and checked to see if my favorite scenes made the cut! Hopefully this makes it to the big screen sooner rather than later:)

    • I like the details included in the dialogues. So cool!

  • I actually never heard of Hold Still, but it’s sounds interesting! And I love this meme and all the photos are great!!

    Happy Reading
    Patrick @ The Bookshelves

  • I always break out into a happy dance whenever something arrives that I completely forgot about like a pre-order, but this is WAY better than that, and must have totally made your day. I haven’t read Hold Still, but I will now because I’m OCD about tackling a book BEFORE the movie. Thanks for the heads up!

    Carmel @ Rabid Reads

    • You’re welcome! I hope you’ll enjoy it, C. 😉

  • Those photos are awesome! I haven’t read the book yet, but it’s been on my list! I didn’t know it was being made into a movie though! How exciting!

    • Thank you! It’s an old one, but I think it’s one of the premieres of the YA contemporaries.

  • Considering how many books we bloggers read monthly it’s no wonder we forget some plot details, but I can see that the book left a big impression on you, especially because you donated to the movie adaption- how nice of you, Joy. 🙂 I must admit that I never heard about this book or the movie before, but now I’m definitely gonna check it out. Thanks for sharing!

    • You’re welcome, Purple ( I wish I knew your actual name. Lol). I did enjoy it, it hurt my heart, but heck. It was awesome nonetheless.

  • Melanie (YA Midnight Reads)

    OMG it’s turning into a movie? That is so awesome! i’ve heard great things about Nina LaCour and I will have to read this book before I watch the movie xD

    • It’s an indie film, so I don’t know how many theatres will actually pick the film up.

  • Aw, yay! That is so awesome Joy 😀 The pictures are gorgeous. <3 I'm so glad you finally got this 🙂 I haven't heard of this movie before, but it looks pretty awesome. Thank you for sharing sweetie. <3

  • WOW, this is spectacular! Movies that get turned to movies through the help of fans always give me warm fuzzies. I bet it was awesome seeing the screenplay in your own hands. I will have to check this movie out for myself if it impacted you that much (and oh, I am reading Station Eleven right now because of your review ;D )

    Faye at The Social Potato

    • It does look awesome. and I low seeing the play-by-play in my head. 🙂

  • I have not heard of this book. but your description makes me want to read it now! Ha. It sounds like a great book. I love it when a book can make me feel that strongly, even if it involves tears. That is the point of reading, right? 🙂

    • Exactly! It’s those books that stay with us for years. 🙂

  • Cool 🙂

  • Christy

    I don’t think I’ve heard of this book. How exciting though! It’s funny how we can remember how something made us feel, even though we can’t remember the details of why.

    • This one is an oldie, not too many people know about it. If you like grief book, this one is one of the good ones.