Confessions of an Addict [26]: Lazaretta?



“My dear, find what you love and let it kill you. Let it drain you of all. Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into an eventual nothingness. Let it kill you and devour your remains. For all things will kill you, both slowly, and fastly, but it’s much better to be killed by a lover. ” – Falsely Yours by Charles Bukowski.

Some of you are probably wondering where I’ve been the last few weeks, huh? Well, aside from my constant whining about work and my inability to find the right balance between all the stuff that I do outside of blogging and reading, the tap has been opened. This is pretty much what’s been occupying my life at the moment. I’ve been writing – not stories, mind you. But poems. If you follow my Instagram account or my Tumblr, you would know that poetry has commandeered what little spare time I have. This thing, unfortunately is like a virus, but one that is a welcome infection. It has no cure or remedy. All I can do is to let it run its course. You also can’t force it. If you have to force it out of you, then it’s probably shit. I think Charles Bukowski said the same thing as well. Brilliant man.

I remember a post I did a while ago complaining about my muse being a cold-hearted wench who’d so cruelly abandoned me. And now, she seems to have come back in full force. I try not to suppress it, though. And it’s not like I can. I tried to remember what prompted this sudden burst of inspiration, and everything points to this lovely typewriter. It works like a charm and the clickity-clack sound it makes is music to my ears. Sometimes, I’ll sit there and type nonsensical stuff just because I want to hear it. I’m worried though. If I ran out of ribbon, does that mean my poems will stop writing itself?

What about you? What do you do outside of reading and blogging?

  • That’s so cool that you write poetry! I love that typewriter, too.

    Outside of blogging and reading, I like to play basketball, hang out with my friends, and watch movies 🙂

  • Aww, such a cute typewriter 🙂

    Have fun with your (poem) writing!!
    ~Following your Tumblr now~

  • I headed over to Instagram to read some of your poems – love them!! So glad that you’ve been feeling inspired!

  • Christy

    I really enjoy your poems on IG, Joy. Outside of blogging? Oh, you know … sex, drugs, and rock ‘n roll. 😀

  • I’ve been liking your posts on IG. I love those things you posted. Outside of blogging and reading, I doodle on my journal, and been learning Korean a lot. 😀

    • 🙂 Thanks, Dre. Korean! Oh wow. Is it pretty hard?

      • At first it was, but once I learned the Hangul in 2 days, I got the hang of it. Now I can read Korean, and understand most of the things they say in Kdramas 😀 I still have a long way to go!

  • Ah yes it’s always a lot of tthings to do between everything. And even if I’m not used with poems I’m sure it takes a lot of time as well. I remember reading some of yours, they were really good. Good luck with everything.

  • Outside of reading and blogging I don’t have much time for anything else, because I work full-time. I love traveling and taking relaxing vacations, and it seems my husband and I are able to get away for short bits pretty often. So, there’s that too.

    I’m in awe of your talent. I can’t imagine writing poetry. I’m pretty sure I’d get frustrated typing on an old fashioned type writer, because I’d make so many mistakes! Hope you keep company with your muse for some time to come, Joy! 🙂

    • Thanks, Rachel. I love traveling as well, and to be honest, I’ve been failing a lot on my other responsibilities. I work full time, with two kids and a husband that needs to be kept in line from time to time. Hehehehe.

      My poetry is pretty elementary. Nothing life-changing.

  • I can’t imagine myself writing poems so you must be very talented!

    I love tv so when I’m not working, reading or blogging, I’m watching tv or going to the movies. I also love hanging out with my friends and that usually takes up a good chunk of my free time. It’s so hard to be able to do everything. I wish I had more time 🙁

    • *snorts* hardly talented, Eileen. I just do what I can. Hanging out is nice. I’m not very sociable, I’m afraid. I prefer the company of my family and books. 🙂

  • I love love love that your write poems. <3 And I love reading them as well 😀 You are awesome. And omg. That type-writer is gorgeous. I wants one 😀 But hah. I do not do much besides reading and blogging.. I spend way too much time on Twitter everyday. Most of the day I just sit in my chair with my laptop on my lap. Or a book. And that is happening all day, every day :p But I also spend time with my kitty. <3 Though she sleeps a lot, lol. I also love watching movies. Though I need to do that more often. Ack. Anyway. Thank you for sharing Joy. <3

    • I love your cat! You two are so cute together! *smooshes*

  • Faye M.

    Awwww, poems are a good distraction, Joy! I’d welcome it if ever the urge comes to my by storm. I remember a time long ago when I loved making ones too, but I can’t seem to write anything good that’s freestyle. I can only write stuff that rhyme, but it seems that nobody really appreciates them anymore 🙁 Not in the literary world anyway, when freestyle and other modern styles rule so I feel left out. But as for me, I write fanfiction, edit videos, and draw stuff in my free time. And oh, video games, too 😛 Can NEVER forget that one! ^_^

    Faye at The Social Potato

    • I can’t do freestyle prose either, Faye. My bank of vocab isn’t that deep. So I go and drop rhymes like it’s going out of style. Sometimes, I think I write 7th grade poetry but I don’t let that get to me. 🙂 I used to write fanfiction too but not anymore. I find I really have no patience in writing a full-length story.

  • SO glad you are writing up a storm, I think that is awesome! As for what else I do, I make cards! Strange right but it is an outlet for creativity (what little I have) and it is fun too. I have a card group that meets monthly and we talk, make cards, eat yummy food, all that fun stuff that goes with just hangign out with friends.

    • Card, as in greeting cards? That’s awesome! My creativity only go as far as the words I know – nothing artistic whatsoever. I think your hobby is wonderful. 😉