I Have No Words Today.

photo-8 Actually, I haven’t had any words for the last few weeks. I haven’t written any poems nor have I attempted to do any Black Out Poetry even. This is not writer’s block. This is a complete shut-down of my capacity to write. Every time I attempt to write something, I’m immediately overcome by feelings of inadequacy and over all failure. I hate when that happens.

This time, it’s brutal; because my words just end up looking listlessly tiresome. I’m starting to feel a bit exhausted with all the attempts that I’ve done. This is actually an exercise to see if inspiration would come; a way to smash my away out of this tiny room without doors and windows. And since this blog is pretty much a diary or personal journal of sorts, I thought I’d go ahead and vent.

I don’t think I’ve mentioned it before, but I’m an accountant without a designation. I recently took over my former boss’ job; so in essence, I handle the financial and managerial position for the company that I’ve worked twelve years for. I wanted to mention it because in the past two weeks, I’ve had to deal with the process of re-doing financial statements for the new president. I’ve lived, breathed, and would probably have died seeing numbers everywhere had it not been for the books that I escaped to when I can manage. I think this is also the reason I’m stuck right now. This is really frustrating. It feels like my brain is literally forgetting how to string words to form a decent poem. Because when you can’t do the thing you love the most, and the only thing stopping you is yourself, what is the point?

Thanks for reading. I hope you’re having a great weekend.

  • Today, while I was at work, my sister stole my apple ipasd and tested to see if it can survive a forty foot drop,
    just so she can be a youtube sensation. My iPaad is now broken and she has 83 views.
    I now this is completely off topic but I had to share it with someone!

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  • *hugs* since I am reading this late I hope things have gotten better since you posted this. If not, I hope they do soon. I think we all go through overwhelming periods in our life. It sounds like work has been really busy/stressing you out. I have this happen when school and work get really busy (like lately) and I just exhaust myself and barely manage to do anything decently. Can you take a mental healthy day? Or maybe just trudge along until work eases up and don’t put so much pressure on yourself to write? I really think the words will come back, you have a gift and that doesn’t just go away šŸ™‚ I don’t know if any of this is helpful but I’m here for you!

  • Glad that books are giving you a little bit of an outlet! Sorry that writing isn’t happening right now, but I know the inspiration will hit again soon!!

    Nicole @ Feed Your Fiction Addiction

  • *BIG HUG* Joy! Sometimes work can just suck the life out of you but it won’t be like that for long, it will get better and then your inspiration will go flowing in like crazy!

  • I’m sure you’ll be back to your awesome, poetic self soon, Joy. You’re probably just stressed right now. *hugs* You’re amazing and we all love you. <3 I hope this feeling passes soon.

  • It will get better Joy. Maybe binge watch a funny series, or go someplace during the weekends, OR go shopping. šŸ˜€ It doesn’t matter if it is books, clothes or whatever. Maybe go explore new places to eat, and discover new tastes that might comfort you and get you back on track. Aww, if only I can send you some comfort brownies. šŸ™‚

  • I think you are suffering from a lot of stress with the work that you’re doing. It does suck when you can’t do the thing you love the most, like when I had that reading slump, it was a depressing state. I hope you get back on track soon!

  • Ohhh, I hope your words will come back to you soon!! Maybe after things have calmed down a bit at work….? Until then, try not to worry too much and (try to) relax (when you can). And like Rachel said, watching some telly or doing something outdoorsie might help as well.

  • *Hugs* šŸ™ I’m sorry Joy. Feeling like that.. it sucks : *Just know that I adore you and think you are awesome :D* I hope you will feel better very, very soon. <3

  • Oh, Joy! Sounds like your overwhelmed. Maybe if you watch an addictive TV series or movie or get outside and do something physical you’ll clear your head. I hope this passes for you! šŸ™‚

  • *hugs* It sounds like you are a little overwhelmed right now with the new responsibilities. I am sure words will start coming back to you when there isn’t so much stress.
    Maybe read something inspirational or go somewhere relaxing?

  • I hope you get your mojo back soon! Don’t be so hard on yourself – those feelings of inadequacy and failure – tell them from me in a great NI accent to feck away off!