The Vertical City

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I haven’t been able to take much pictures of this city. This trip has been mostly about books, authors and sore feet. As much as those have been fun, I’m disappointed that I haven’t fully taken advantage of the loads of photo-opportunity this city has to offer. I have taken so few, but I must admit how beautiful some of the pictures turned out. This is the view from the Top of the Rock (Rockefeller Centre), which shows a faint visual of the tip of Manhattan Island. I am terrified of heights; so the whole time I was up there, I stayed at a great distance from the glass partition.

New York thrums with energy from the inside and out; from top to bottom. People move at a constant speed; you can’t sit idly by or you will get lost in the stream. This is even more prevalent if you find yourself frozen in the lit melee of Times Square.

Oddly enough, and as chaotic New York has been, this place has turned me into a contemplative tourist. This city has made me self-aware; even more so than usual. I learned that I’m much too dependent on the people around me; that I cannot survive without asking anyone for help. Β At forty years old, I am still, and probably will always be an introvert who freezes at the thought of walking into a roomful of people on my own. I suck as a human being; I expect people to talk to me instead of making the initiative myself. I did warn you that my on-line personality is more gregarious than in real life. So as much as you’ve been disappointed in me, I am more disappointed in myself.

I think this will be it for now, I may or may not do an in-depth recap of the BEA events. I’m sorry if I haven’t visited your blog lately butΒ I will be going back to regular programming next week.

 

  • I’m an introvert at 40 too, so I totally get it. I had to force myself to break out of my shell for BEA – but I feel like I did a pretty good job. I was actually in awe of how independent I was in NYC – it was so easy to get around because of how the streets were numbered that I just felt at ease walking around the city. I was too intimidated to try the subway though!

  • I went to NY for the first time a few weeks ago and really enjoyed it, too. I was with a bunch of high school students, so didn’t get to do everything I would have liked, so I definitely plan on going back to do things like hit the Strand. I love the pictures you included. I do want to hit up BEA sometime, but more to meet my lovely blogger buddies than the books. The books are awesome, of course, but I really do get so many thru NG and EW that I don’t feel like I HAVE to get all the books. Great post!

  • Nawww you don’t suck at being a human being. I mean not everyone feels comfortable initiating conversation and as an introvert and someone who hates talking unless they are talked to first (and then turns into a blabber mouth), I FEEL YOU.

    That picture is beautiful and I hope that in spite of everything, you had a wonderful time at BEA! πŸ™‚

  • Yes, books, sore feet, sore everything, hickies on my shoulders where the straps from all the totes rubbed…I wish we would have bumped into eachother *sadface*

  • Beautiful picture and post Joy, New York really does bring out those sorts of feelings doesn’t it? We’re just one tiny person in a sea of people and it’s so overwhelming.

  • This picture is gorgeous, Joy! And don’t be too hard on yourself for not being more outgoing here. Book events as big as BEA can be OVERWHELMING! My mind is racing (when I attend the ALA) and so I barely get a coherent word out. New York is large and intimidating so I can understand turning into an introvert to soak it all in. Hope you got some great books! πŸ™‚

  • Christy

    Aw, don’t be disappointed in yourself. As long as you had a fun experience.That is a beautiful picture!

  • As long as you had fun in NYC and BEA, I think that’s what matters the most πŸ™‚

    And you do not suck! Going to a conference alone can be unnerving, I am not shy but that would still make me a nervous wreck. Have a safe trip home!

  • I hear you on the introvert thing. I am still painfully shy when it comes to a room full of strangers.

    Beautiful picture and I am glad that although still intimidated, you are still having a nice time. πŸ™‚

  • Oh, I love that picture Joy. <3 Thank you for sharing πŸ˜€ And yay. I am glad you had a great time in New York. <3 I am jealous, though, lol. I cannot wait to see all the books you got while there πŸ˜€ *EVEN MORE JEALOUS*

  • aww heh I never looked at NYC from another’s POV. Having grown up there myself. Yeah it’s a beautiful city, lots of picture-esq places out there. Glad you enjoyed it!

  • Have a good day Joy1 And I hope you do a BEA recap. πŸ™‚