Wreck this Journal Update

So on my sidebar is this thing that I’ve been doing since the beginning of the month. I wanted to “wreck” my journal in as little as 30 days. Admittedly, I started second-guessing myself as soon as I posted on-line that I was going to do this challenge. But once I got things rolling, the tasks wasn’t difficult to do. To be honest, I’m working on a second copy right now. The first one didn’t work out as good.  For one thing, my heart wasn’t in it. So I trashed that one and bought a second copy. I’ve also had instances when I would re-do things on my current journal. I think I would’ve been done with this a week ago, but because I keep redoing stuff, I’m unable to finish.

Let me tell you: this thing is so addictive and therapeutic! Just the other day, I spent about four hours finding my zen by being creative. There’s nothing more calming than taking your aggression out wielding a paint brush!

There are a couple of instructions where the time span perfectly comes into play: collecting stamps off of your mail and fruit stickers. Because I’m working on a 30-day deadline, I’ve been cheating a little bit with these. I take the stamps from work and I steal fruit stickers at the grocery stores. What? Okay, fine. I won’t do it anymore. Sheesh.

Anyway, so today, I’d like to do a little update by showing you what I’ve done so far.

This is what I’ve started with. You can see the beginnings of wrecking by the writing on the edges. 

I’ve been using paint a lot. I’ve never really done anything remotely artistic before so I thought this is my chance to see if I have even an ounce. Sadly, I have none. 
I also have been incorporating some of my poems in the pages. I’ve written a couple that were sort of inspired by the book. This one, written on a newspaper book review reads:
Your words are my morphine drip:
addictive and woeful comfort.
There’s also another instruction where you’re to try and remember the dots on the page, close your eyes and try to connect them. So I wrote a short poem on that as well. 
It really gets your creative juices flowing. 
This one in particular, was also inspired by my current read, Vicious by V.E. Schwab. The character, Victor Vale, is quite adept in blocking out words to create a different line of thought. This page is sort of a disclaimer about what the book would make you do and how you will probably do things that’s outside of your comfort zone. So I tried to emulate Victor and came up with this:
THE PROCESS OF FOREIGN STATE MAY SEE DESTRUCTION
It definitely sounds like a subliminal message of some sort. 
And this is how I calmed myself down the other day. I painted a really, really angry scrubbing. I may have over done it because my husband looked at me and asked if I were really okay. 
Just a fair warning, it’s quite messy. I haven’t been able to see my dining table for days. 
The journal has grown massively grotesque in a span of a few weeks. I can’t wait to finish this so I can try Keri Smith’s other books along the same line. I’m shooting to get this done by the end of this week so I can mail it out by Monday. Yes, it asks you to mail it to yourself when you’re done. Lol.