Confessions of an Addict [15]: Random Incoherence with Whining on the Side.

Yesterday, in a sudden flash of ingenuous wisdom, I decided to reorganize my shelves. My bedroom looked like it was ransacked; there literally were books everywhere. I was buried and there’s this overwhelming feeling – a panic, that for the first time in my life, I might have to consider this concept called, “Book Buying Ban”. I didn’t get to bed until two in the morning. My body aches everywhere. I lugged books from the second floor of my house to the basement. That’s two sets of stairs at twelve steps each. It literally feels like I’ve been knocked around by a 2 x 4.

My to read books are housed in a bookshelf upstairs in our bedroom. The reality is, I’m pretty sure the joists on my bedroom floor is not capable of holding the weight. The shelves are stacks deep and while organizing them, came the discovery of releases that are now about two years old. They’re unread.

I have started this meme on the blog called, From Splurge to Purge, wherein I will try my best to host a bi-monthly giveaway for books that I bought, read and didn’t like, or haven’t read and will likely not read. It is a shame. I AM ashamed. Every week, right around Tuesdays, I always find myself lurking in my bookstore, hunting for new releases. There’s not a week that goes by that I don’t have a delivery from Amazon or bags of books from recent jaunts.

I am an addict.

I need to have new books every week.

The idea of not finding a box of books from Amazon waiting at my doorstep is terrifying.

The idea of going to the bookstore and not end up buying anything leaves me in cold sweat.

I rue the day when I get home from work and there I’ll find friends and family sitting around my living room along with a therapist announcing an intervention of sorts.

They said the first step to healing is admitting your problem.

Well, duh.

Yes, I know I have a problem.

Yes, I know I’m out of control.

No one knows this better than I do.

Now that I admitted it, what do I do now? It’s easy to suggest that I should stop buying books. There are publishers and authors who are more than willing to send me books for reviews. But. I’m a lazy person and I don’t really have any connections. I don’t have many contacts and as such my blog is just another tad pole in a huge pond.

What is the point to this post? Nothing, really. But hey, if you feel the same way, you are not alone. I’m here for ya. Let us hoard books without guilt. Love them, cherish them and dust them off once in a while.

My bedroom still looks like a torrid mess. I’ve not been able to complete the organization. My bookshelf also houses my husband’s tv that unfortunately, if I want access to my books, I have to close the door…and it’s Sunday. Football Sunday. I’m pretty sure if I disturb his Sunday ritual, he’ll file for divorce on the next business day.

Thanks for reading my post. You can always count on me to waste a minute or two of your time.



  • If you have to have an addiction, it's not a bad one to have.

  • Oh Joy… That panic that you get about maybe not getting a box of books from Aazon weekly… I know how you feel and I frequently go through it!! I am glad that you don't have to. It's AWFUL!! I do have a large TBR list but every day I e-shop and pretend… Come home wishing maybe something will magically be there…
    You are the best book hoarder I know and I aspire to be more like you <3 One day I will come visit you and revel in the awesome that is you and your shelves!!

  • I know exactly how you feel. My cardboard jungle has thousands of books. The worst part is I prefer to check out books I already own from the library rather than digging through my boxes. Sometimes I'll even put holds on books I own and would rather wait.

    Anyway…even though I have TONS of books, I can't stop myself from :
    . Checking out more from the library
    . Browsing thrift store shelves
    . Entering book giveaways

    There's nothing like a shiny new book!

  • LMAO. Bookapocalypse, what a concept. Lol! I actually have entertained the idea of selling my books back but I'm a little worried it'll be more work than my schedule can handle. At this point, I might have to consider it seriously because my house is literally a fire hazard with all the books lying around. Lol!

  • My favorite addict! *hugs* J, why don't you consider selling your books to Amazon for credit, I know they do that, or selling them on Ebay? You don't have to stop buying, but you can also start getting rid of books you feel you won't read and get some much needed space back. I know it will make you feel better…
    Anyway, as you said this is much more harmless than some other things out there. Who knows you might be stocking up for the apocalypse, and then who'll be showing us all? LOL

  • *collecting. Sheesh.

  • Yes, let's blame the publishers for their coercion maneuvers. How dare they force us to buy books! Oh the humanity. Lol.

    It is quite embarassing, isn't it? But the way I see it, this is a better vice than smoking, drinking, clubbing, killing kittens and collection children in your basement. Not that I do all that…God I'm a sicko for even thinking it. [shudders]

  • I think the problem is, too many awesome sounding books coming out each month! More than what is possible to read so it feels like catching up will never happen. My mom counted how many I had that I have yet to read and I was a little embarrassed. I want to read them, I do! And I will! on the bright side, it is kinda like having your own personal library to choose a book when you want to read?

    I'm still kinda new so I obviously have no publisher contacts. I finally bit the bullet and attempted to request a couple from different publishers. I heard nothing back. *sigh* I'm not cut out for that. Rejection is a bitch. It's probably a sign I should stick with what I have. lol

  • Thank you, Maja. No one understands our plight better than everyone in this community. 🙂

    It is funny and tragic and sad. Regardless of shameful it is, it's not going to stop me from acquiring books.

  • Thank you, Kara. 🙂

    THAT is why I'm skittish about requesting books. I don't handle pressure well.

    Keep the hopes alive!

  • Oh, Joy! *wipes tears*
    I know it's not funny, but I laughed so hard reading your post mostly because I recognized myself in your words and I know exactly the kind of quiet despair and helplessness you're talking about here. Winning a battle against yourself is something very few manage to do. I can't. You obviously can't. Bu we'll sure as hell keep trying. 🙂

  • This. Is. Awesome. I just added ten more to my pile yesterday. We are hoarders. I know I am. I know I have a problem. I can't stop and I don't want to. I don't have a lot pf publishing contacts either and I don't want them. The last thing I need is MORE pressure. I've started reading my own books. I am whittling down that TBR shelf. But the bad part is I still keep adding to it faster than I am reading. My husband told the cashier at Books a Million that I have piles I will never read. I refuse to believe this. I WILL read them. Sigh. LOL.